Pernah tak encounter situations like when you start doing something new, for example, you start paying attention in class, then people would shoot things like "eh eh,rajinnya kau tiba-tiba, nak bodek lecturerlah tu.". Or when you do something a little more drastic like you start wearing a hijab, and people start bombarding you with questions like "kenapa pakai tudung? ada class agama ke?" or "buang tabiat ke tiba-tiba nak bertutup-tutup ni?".
I'm pretty sure a lot of you have encountered this. I, personally have been in these situations. Then we, being the person who's being attacked would usually answer stupidly simply because we're not ready for any questions. Yelah, why should we be ready for questions when niat kita untuk berubah in the first place is for the sake of Allah. So kita tak bersedia untuk disoal dengan soalan-soalan yang kita rasakan tidak relevan seperti yang dinyatakan di atas. I, personally would usually laugh it off. Malas nak layan orang-orang yang berfikiran cetek sampai terlintas to ask me those kind of questions.
But, yes, there is a but! Even when we just laugh it off, or we take it as a joke, dalam hati mesti terlintas rasa tak puas hati, kan? Kenapa orang tanya aku soalan macam tu? Ini human nature sebenarnya, walaupun zahirnya kita selalu cakap tak penting apa orang cakap, and we constantly remind ourselves that they know our names, not our story. Jadi mereka boleh judge kita, tapi hanya kita tahu mengapa kita bertindak begitu. But neither these wise saying nor thousands of beautiful quotes can really convince us to really accept what people has to say about us and just let it pass.
Lepas tu bila rasa tak puas hati orang dah cakap macam tu, kita pun try to fit in semula. And what do we do to fit in? Tukar balik kepada diri kita yang sebelumnya. Yang dah elok berhijab tiba-tiba free-hair semula, yang dah elok markah meningkat sebab pay attention in class, terus markah drop semula because dah tak nak concentrate in class. See how people's judgment somehow affects us tremendously?
My point is, kalau kita nak berubah, set minda dan hati awal-awal untuk menangkis semua tohmahan and stupid questions from these people. They don't know what they're doing or they're probably just jealous that you're changing into a better person sedangkan mereka masih hanyut di takuk lama. Seringkali orang set mind "lepas graduate nak start pakai tudung" or "lepas kahwin dah tak nak pergi night club". Okay, memanglah dah bagus dah ada niat dekat situ, tapi pernah tanya tak, how sure are we that we are going to live that long? Seberapa yakin kita yang kita akan bangun semula pada hari esok? Ajal mautkan di tangan Allah s.w.t.
Why put till tomorrow what you can do today? Kalau rasa nak bertudung, silakan. Kalau rasa nak kembali bersolat, silakan. Kalau rasa nak bertadarus, silakan. Kadang-kadang perkara begini tidak perlu tunggu sehingga diri benar-benar bersedia, sometimes we'll have to force ourselves to do something and eventually it will become a habit. Been there, done that. Kalau rasa diri belum bersedia untuk berhijab, mungkin perlu question balik pada diri sendiri, bersediakah kita untuk menghadapi neraka? Sama juga implikasinya terhadap perkara-perkara lain. Kalau rasa belum bersedia untuk seksaan neraka, maka sediakanlah diri untuk kematian.
And then we move on kepada orang-orang yang melantik diri menjadi juri tidak bertauliah dalam kehidupan kita. To these people who likes to give judgments, why don't you take a mirror and reflect yourself first. Kalau pun anda lebih baik daripada orang tersebut, does looking down on people and making fun of people's effort makes you any better? After all, like what Nouman Ali Khan said, "Islam is not about "we're better than you." Islam is "about let me show you something that is better for you." Judgment yang anda lontarkan hari ini mungkin menjadi penyebab mereka tidak mahu berubah kepada yang lebih baik untuk diri mereka.
Basically, these "transforming" people are trying to blend in. Just because they're doing something new, doesn't mean they're already comfortable doing it. Maybe they fake a smile and just laugh everything off, but deep inside who knows. God knows how much they want to break off and get back to being in their old skin, tetapi atas dasar memperbaiki diri, they look over those restlessness. The least we could do is support them.
Last but not least, to all those people who has been given the opportunity by Allah s.w.t. to change, be thankful for it. Out of millions of people in this world, you have been chosen. While others are lingering in the dark, you've found the light at the end of the tunnel. Ramai lagi yang masih sesat, tetapi anda telah menemui jalan, wallahualam. :)
(At-Taubah:15)
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