Wish Upon a Shooting Cloud.

I used to believe in the saying that it's easy to forgive, but it's hard to forget. Honest, I used to believe that forgiving is easier done. But when you come to think of it, can you really forgive if you can't forget the damage that's been done? It's not that simple. At least not for me.

You know, I think it is rightfully human that we refuse to forgive, simply because it hurts too much to just be torn apart and then for you to get up and just walk around as if nothing has ever happened. It's never that easy.

But then I saw this:
"Muslims all over the world will stand for hours and hours in prayer seeking God's forgiveness and asking of Him that which their hearts desire. But how can one expect forgiveness when we are ourselves are not forgiving? How can one seek forgiveness when we do not seek forgiveness from each other?"
-Imam Khalid Latif-

Upon reading that, I started to forgive. But being the human I am, when things get out of hand, I get out of forgiveness. I started to feel the wrong being repeatedly done. It's again, not easy to just let pass the damage that's been done.

But I have come to one conclusion, if I don't forgive, I'll never forget. If I don't forget, I'll never trust again. Why hurt yourself? I'd always say. Regardless of what you and others may say, I promise to make things right. I will do what it takes to connect what has been torn by you and the others who are not in the known.

So today, I resolve to forgive the person I have come to grow so much hatred inside of me.

The heart is either alive or it's dead. It's either healthy or it's sick.
-Ibn Qayyim-

p/s: Allah, please give me strength in doing this. :/