"the past can hurt,but the way i see it,you either run from it or learn from it."

Thursday, May 27, 2010

one letter game

Rules:Copy to your own blog , erase my answers , enter yours , and tag five people.Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions .They have to be real , nothing made up!If the person before you had the first initial , you must use different answers .You cannot use any words twice and you can’t use your name for your boy/girl name question .

What is your name :
Nurul Syahirah Noor Azman(i'll be using S okay,fyi. :D)

A four letter word:

A boy’s name :
Syafiq smelly.haha.

A girl’s name:
Sofea sengal.(sorry i can't use your name sister,you'll be doing this next.)

An occupation:

A colour:
Silver scarlet?hee.

Something you’ll wear:
Skirt.in my dreams!haha.shirt. :D

A type of food:
Steak.aha.i don't know.

Something found in the bathroom:
Shower cap.in the hotel of course.hee.

A place:
South Carolina!ohh,this reminds me,sweeeeeeet caroline,good times never seemed so gooooooood!okay,that was just crapping.tee hee.

A reason for being late:
Stupid clock.haha.it's never my fault,it's the clock.

Something you’d shout:
S**t!no,i'd shout shoot instead. :)

A movie title:
Surrogate.(i've never even watched it.)

Something you drink:
Sky juice.(okay,i sound poor,not that i'm filthy rich.haha.)

A musical group:.
Spice Girls.do they still exist,btw?

An animal:

A type of car:
Uhh,Subaru.yes!i miss that car.

A type of fruit:
Strawberry!berry berrymon!ahaha.

i'm done.thank you!
*winks winks*

watch me as i'll pretend to feel no pain

here's to you sir,

i believe,the childhood she wished you had shared with her is gone,zilch,it's not here anymore.you can't expect an acceptance after all the foolish discourse you have caused.it ain't gonna be easy.you can't take away someone's pride,turn it into a laughter evoking act,and think they'll still be hoping you'd share the joy.she's starting to believe a perfect ending is just bullshit,and thanks to you,her points are well sealed.

time flies,seasons changed,years passed,and i assure you,people grows.like it or not,they'll have their own mentality.they'll judge you with or without the existence of influences.this is no time to be dropping off a lesson or two,she's had hers.and trust me,you're not one of the teachers.and just so you know,the respects she has for you are thinning by every passing second.and don't you dare go around pointing fingers,this fault is none other than yours.
the times she needed you,the times she wished you're by her side,has outdistanced.

i'm sorry captain,the ship has sailed,and you're not in it.

p/s:the happiness you tend to give is just too ephemeral to stay a glance of memory.


can i say hate?
yes i can.
alright,maybe,just maybe,
it can't work.

but it's the thoughts that counts,
ever heard of that?
well i know i have,

note to self:this is just another path.*sigh*

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Sunday, May 23, 2010

lesson of life,taught.

purpose of this post?honestly,i don't know.
i wanted to write something on someone else,but it leads me to the late Dayah.
and i miss her. T___T
anyways,i don't want to write anymore sad posts about her,or it will never end.
i hate being morose,fyi. :)

oh,did i tell you i lost another friend to a car crash?
oh well,i did,Amirul Aiman.
but i barely know him so i didn't write a post on him.
anyhow,i'll include him in this post.

i know you're in a better place
but i wish that i could see your face
i know you're where you need to be
even though it's not here with me

i miss you,i miss your smile
and i still shed a tear every once in a while
and eventhough it's different now
you're still here somehow
my heart won't let you go
and i need you to know
i miss you

-Miley Cyrus-

thanks to Hidayah and Aiman,i now know better than to waste my life hating.i learnt that i shall love while i can.give while i still have.live life to the fullest.life's too short to be anything but happy.thanks a million! *insert extremely big smile here* enjoy life people,you'll never know what tomorrow has in store for you. *winks*

Saturday, May 22, 2010

perfectly unhinge

it's 3 something and i'm still up.oh well.
this week has been,how should i put it?interesting?no.super interesting.haha.
anywho and anyhow,i'm not gonna talk about that,it's gonna be lengthy.
next post maybe?no promises.(insert smiley here)

anyways,i have always thought of writing,i mean blogging in malay,or manglish,u know what i mean.but i'm afraid once i start using it in one post,i'll continue writing the next posts in malay,then it becomes a habit and lalala.oh well.

okay,on to the next point,not that i don't like the malay language,i speak malay all the time,and i mean it,like ALL the time(i don't have that bag of courage to speak english in public,fyi).and so blogging is the only way for me to actually speak or write or practice or whatever,haha,in english,so it's safe to say,i'll be stopping myself from even thinking of writing in malay in the nearest future.*not gonna happen,Syahirah!* okay that was a mere internal monologue,kindly ignore.thank you.

aside from blogging,there's other options,you know,write your own novels,essays and yadayadayada,but i suck at all that.so go figure,blogging it is.*and it's gonna be in english!and don't you even think of being stubborn to your own self* another internal monologue,kindly ignore and proceed.thank you.

speaking of writing,it brings me to the 300 words MARA so-called-essay.okay so now i'm confused,you know in school,when a teacher says write an essay,it should be MORE than the number of words mentioned,and when a teacher says write a summary,it should be written no more than the number of words mentioned.but in this case,it's written "write a 300 words description of yourself,education,and career planning" should it be more or less?hmmm.

alas and alack,not withstanding of where my description shall stand,i've got one done,and surprisingly,the first time i read it,i thought to myself,"uh huh,this is just fine.just moderate,a little bit of killing myself,a little bit of uplifting myself,and a hell lot of positivity.should be fine"(add smiling with pride and accomplishment here).but the second and uncounted times i read it after,it became,"ugh so braggy,what in the world are you talking about?man,this is so absolutely positudy lying!"(add in confused and embarrassed face her)

so right now,as a matter of fact,i was supposed to amend my oh-so-undone "essay",but instead,i used up the time to update my blog.talk about distraction.haha.

i'm a sparrow,i'm not afraid of being in captivity
i'm an eagle,i'm not afraid of flying high
i'm a human,i have my own mind
i'm a person,i have my own dreams
live on.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

annoying:causing vexation or irritation

Man Sura 18 May at 12:23 Report
u 're such a rude
i dont even know how could a person like u exist in da world neither in dis MALAYSIA????A MALAYSIAN acts like herself as a VIP or actors or mybe something jerk from another country?as i know,only chinese people mostly dont want to make friend with us,BUT U??dont be like them,we are malaysian people,so y me(a malaysian)cant make friend with ya?get touch with all people buddy..

Nurul Syahirah Noor Azman 18 May at 23:25
hello. :) (i was taught this is the most polite way to start a conversation.)

now,first of all,do not be a judgemental person,cause honestly,who are you to judge a person you have yet to talk to?

second,extracting from your own words "i dont even know how could a person like u exist in da world neither in dis MALAYSIA????A MALAYSIAN acts like herself as a VIP or actors or mybe something jerk from another country?".my answer would be very simple.how do i exist?is because i close my ears to haters and closed minded people like a certain homosapiens.hehe.call me a jerk,i wouldn't mind.because for all of my concern,you don't know me.

third,"only chinese people mostly dont want to make friend with us,BUT U??dont be like them,we are malaysian people".what are you talking about?i mean seriously.ONLY CHINESE PEOPLE?this is being pure discriminative.enough said.

fourth,"so y me(a malaysian)cant make friend with ya?".i've never said i do not to make friends.if you're really sincere to make friends,just drop a mail,a polite one preferably,and i'll be sure to get back to you.so there.

anyways,just to clear things up and to answer your question,why i do not approve people i don't know.it's simply because i hate to be judged and stalked by strangers.i get to know new people everyday.i make as many friends as i could.but some people are just not worth talking to.so do prove you're worth knowing. :)

cheerio.good day. :D

Man Sura 19 May at 00:52 Report
ty for reply buddy,if i drop a mail,u wont accept me as a friend coz u didnt know me,like u said HONESTLY,u wont accept anyone u didnt know and that will wasting ur(they) time n i think if i drop a mail,or a smile,or poke,or anything sucks iin this FB wont make any sense coz it will wasting my time too right?about the chinse people,from my observation,most of the chinse ppl dont like malay ppl,a researher from uitm said that most of chinse people wont co-operate with us(MALAYSIAAAANNN) bcoz they knew that we are da mighty LAZiest ppl among da laziest ppl in da world,we only know to fight!sleep!talk that'll make nonsense!and completly USELESS!i hate them but in da same time,i respect them so much..u know what i mean buddy!

Nurul Syahirah Noor Azman 19 May at 01:05
a big pleasure for me to be replying your mail. :)

anyhow,i've said that you'd be wasting your time,that for sure is undeniable.but why did i not block message sending from non-friends?it's because i want to have sincerity in friendship.if you really want to befriend me,work it.but don't get me wrong,i'm not trying to be arrogant or stuck-up.it's just the fact that i believe the harder you try to grasp something,you appreciate it more.i do not want to be added as to fill in some stranger's friends list.i'm done doing that activity in Myspace.i do not wish to repeat the same mistake,if i may say. :)

as for the chinese,aren't they malaysian too?to be very honest, i have high respect for the chinese.not that i'm ashamed of my own race.but to be very honest,as a malay myself,i must say,a lot of us has ocean-bottom level of mentality.we'd rather plead not work ourselves up.use our energy to fight not work together to raise our own self-dignity.

we are only at the bottom when we sit down and wait for miracles to happen.there ain't gonna be no miracles in life.miracles only happens when you work the magic.

anyways,i do get what you meant.and just fyi,i've made quite a few friends through PM,and eventually i'll add them in.and to correct your words,i have a few close chinese friends.and they respect me equally.respect is earned, not asked for. :D

Man Sura 19 May at 01:31 Report
mybe the chinse frends u'd meet were dffrnt a bit,but i didnt met any chinse ppl like u'd meet yet,i worked as a researcher and i know a lot about chinese in malaysia!they are fucking anoying!my work is to i.view with chinse,ask them about fmly cndtion,occupation,and othersu know what they said when i come to their house or their shops?'x mau xmau beli,pegi2,'i worked for da govenrment and i need to take care about them,do they live happily?do they live in a good cndition?but what?they scratched me hurtly at my back,i want to give them a cureso i know a lot about themhey do u want t know smthing?some chinse parents dont like their son to make friend with us,

Nurul Syahirah Noor Azman 19 May at 01:41
you know,i am in no way of defending them.but this is actually a good thing,in a way.it's like a quake,to wake us malays and to realise that we ain't doing our jobs right.

because basically why do they not respect us?look at ourselves.an easier example,Bersamamu.majority recipients which appears in that show is a malay family.it's not that i don't pity them,i'm not that heartless,but look at them.i may not be the best person to say this but they're living a hard life,working day and night, pumping themselves up to get a bite to survive,but still they fail to stipulate a plan.having lots of kids means more commitment.i'm not saying it's a bad thing.i do believe in "rezeki" and stuffs but to be very honest,i also believe in science studies.when there's no fertilisation,there won't be reproductions.if you can't afford to raise a child,why bear more.

and you probably haven't found those cliques,but to be honest,i'm not bragging.but frankly speaking,i think they respect me because i speak fluent english.not flawless,i have yet a lot to learn.just fluent.and i have met one of my chinese friend's mother and she's pretty nice to me. :D

Man Sura 19 May at 01:58 Report
u said that bersamamu alwys shows malays?how about indians?lol?speak fluently?and they will respect ya?that's fucking anoying to me

Nurul Syahirah Noor Azman 19 May at 02:02
and your cursing is getting on my nerves.seriously,why bother talking to me when i'm annoying you?

and hello,back to our topic,we're talking about chinese.we're comparing malay and chinese.indians excluded.and did i not mention majority?get the point first.

Man Sura 19 May at 02:12 Report
god bless Bersamamu!y we must help chinse not da malay?this is a malay country!!so malays should get da majorities!not da chinses

Nurul Syahirah Noor Azman 19 May at 02:16
i'm done here.you've proved my words.haha.good life mate. :)

Man Sura 19 May at 02:24 Report
fucking anoying chinse ppl

p/s:i don't know what's your point, but standing ovation for you, you have proved to be the most annoying,shallow-minded person i have ever met in Facebook. i'm glad i did not approved you in the first place.this is one of those moments i quote, "IMPUDENCY IS SOMETIMES SIGNIFICANT".and yes i brag when i have to.haha.yay me.funny much,i'm annoyed. (-.-")

Saturday, May 15, 2010

tear up the sky

"now i'm done with country stars,
all the tears on her guitar,
i'm not bitter."
-Joe Jonas-
p/s:you're the country star.haha.idiot.go on with it,you're no better.

Friday, May 14, 2010

we'll never know

i wish we had another time,
i wish we had another place,
cause everything we did,
and everything we have is stuck in the moment.

p/s:i did the flower-plucking idiocy once.haha.

bonnie and clyde

you ain't doing anything to straighten things up,
you're just doing it to compliment your egocentric,
guess what,i'm in my circle,
and you're not in it.hah!

p/s:stop with the bullcraps.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

refusing to know is one thing,
refusing to understand is another thing,
i thought you of all people would grasp me,
i'm sorry you don't feel the same way.

p/s:thanks for letting me down and making me feel like a loser.

Monday, May 10, 2010

cause we're moving on and we can't slow down

this ain't gonna be no walk in the park,
i assure you it's a roller coaster ride,
put on your seatbelts,shout at the top of your lungs,
cause it only comes once.

be altrucious,impudent simultaneously,
don't try to blend in when you're born to stand out,
to my fellow comrades,i wish all of us the best of luck,
enjoy the ride.

heavy rain and spray

i never said it's gonna be like driving on a sunday,
nor it is anything like kicking off on monday.

p/s:cheers for the black MyVi.and middle finger award goes to those white cars.hello,you were once in my place,get with it!

Saturday, May 8, 2010

are you game?

Using only song titles from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. You can't use the band I used. Try not to repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think!

Pick Your Artist:
The Jonas Brothers

Are you a male or female:
Pizza Girl

Describe yourself:
Live To Party

How do you feel:
Don't Speak

Describe where you currently live:

What's your Occupation:
Play My Music

If you could go anywhere, where would you go:

Your favorite form of transportation:
Fly With Me

Your best friend is:
Much Better

You and your best friends are:

What's the weather like:
Got Me Going Crazy

If your life was a TV show, what would it be called:
Video Girl

What is life to you:
Time For Me To Fly

Your current relationship:
Don't Tell Anyone

Your fear:
Don't Charge Me For The Crime

What is the best advice you have to give:
Give Love A Try

Thought for the Day:
One Day At A Time

How I would like to die:

My soul's present condition:
On The Line

My motto:
I Am What I Am

now to tag 10 people:
1.Nurul Syafiqah Noor Azman
2.Liyana Aqilah
3.Fara Amira
4.Faridah Alwani
5.Dinie Qistina
6.Farah Lina Nor Azman
7.Nabil Ibrahim
8.Nabila Hanis
9.Nurin Qasrena
10.Syafiqah Yunus

Friday, May 7, 2010

jump in those pyjamas

dance in the rain just to get drenched,
walk a thousand miles just to see that small grin you'll give,

fly across the universe only to pick that small souvenir,
stay up the whole night just to play that tune.

p/s:shucks,i like doing things just for the heck of it. :)

Thursday, May 6, 2010

tale of a happy-ending

fairy tales, you owe me an apology,
your fictions has opened the doorway to millions of worlds,
your persuasion has led me to be acquiesced,
that will end me in extreme exhilaration.

prince charming and happy endings IS a matter of opinion

p/s:jeepers,i have yet to grasp it. :/

this is a cloud,fulfilment will make the rain

when the stars in the firmaments no longer sing the state of my mind,
in it's beautiful melody of love, dream, and fear,
i shall humm and make the inaudible be heard.

stomp our feet for the world to stop,
get on with the stampedes of the tiniest creatures on earth,
turn the clock back at one.

the very first touch should be the second to flaunt it,
an act of impudency should be a form of art,
for my death will be a form of assassination.

this is not an impeccable introspection,
nor it is a contemplation of one-self,
contrary to your thoughts,

this is a promise.

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

death brings no souls apart for love embraces us forever

a 100 days since the last and i'm far from over it. :'(
"And death shall have no dominion.
Dead man naked they shall be one
With the man in the wind and the west moon;
When their bones are picked clean and the clean bones gone.
They shall have stars at elbow and foot;
Though they go mad they shall be sane,
Though they sink through the sea they shall rise again;
Though lovers be love shall not;
And death shall have no dominion."

"Those who have passed away must be in a happier state than those living. How we have been so self-centered as to think primarily in terms of the contrary"

Nur Hidayah Nor Aziz

How long have you known Nurul Syahirah Noor Azman?
just recently, and I'm glad I did (:

>>>via Social Interview,answered by Ili Alia Mohd. Salleh.<<<

i'm flattered,yet again.tee hee. :D

p/s:yes i do get flattered easily,so what? :)

Tuesday, May 4, 2010


A:it's the easy things that are actually hard.
B:because we tend to over-think the smallest possibilities when it comes to the least complicated things.
A:wow...totally agree and we got a philosopher in the house..

i'm flattered.*puke puke*tee hee. :D

alone or with the memory-maker,there'll still be reminiscence

"Here with whitened hair, desires failing, strength ebbing out of him, with the sun gone down and with only the serenity and the calm warning of the evening star left to him, he drank Life, to all it had been, to what it was, to what it would be."

sanity is a matter of sufficience

"We humans do, when the cause is sufficient, spend our lives. We throw ourselves onto the grenade to save our buddies in the foxhole. We rise out the trenches and charge the entrenched enemy and die like maggots under a blowtorch. We strap bombs on our bodies and blow ourselves up in the midst of our enemies. We are, when the cause is sufficient, insane."